me and dates

i think i have problems of remembering dates. or just simply got it wrong in the first place. as i had a very bad headache yesterday.i decided to take some aspirin and sleep thru out the night. as i woke up this morning. i was so happily thinking oh am gonna get to watch the movie that i've been waiting for.it will be on screen today.finally.*jumping around*

but....

NO! it's not today! it's on the 29th of OCTOBER!!! now am so devastated. and i dont know what to do. i think am gonna read the book again. or maybe start reading by the river piedra i sat down and wept.

another month. am gonna go crazy. ok exageration. but i really wanna watch it...*whining*

so freakin hurts

yes.my head.am having the most teribble headache right now.and it hurts.it hurts badly.big time!am so damn restless.but i can't sleep.why oh why?am having this terrible headache.

t.r.a.n.q.u.i.l.i.t.y

a year ago

my dark angel brought me there

he brought me there coz i was in a very bad mood

i don't feel so good now

i wanna be there

to heal

beaches always makes me calm

everything will be clear

t.r.a.n.q.u.i.l.i.t.y

is the word whenever am there.

dearest dark angel,

how i wish you could take me there

& F.Y.I i miss you.

off my laziness

i don't feel like doing anything these days tho there are tons of things to do.my mind is all over the place.i hate using my brains.i want to be as ignorant as possible.i want to sleep all day long.so i wont have to think off all the things that are in my mind.and do the things that am suppose to do.

i wish i could hit the beach right now.i wanna be on the sand.on a sunny day.under a shady tree.reading my book.with a glass of chilled ice lemon tea by my side.oh! and the sound of the waves.doesn't it sound nice? i wish there was a nice beach in KL that i can go to whenever i feel like it.*sigh*

alrighty.i need to do the things i need to do.toodles.

eid in KL???

hey people.guess what.i was totally confident that eid would be on the 22 nd of september.but no.it's not on the 22nd it's on the 20th!! actually i don't really care when the hell is it coz i don't plan to go back for eid this year. but one boring night i chatted with a friend of mine and he gave me links of raya adds from the past years.

and...

tears started coming out from my eyes. then. it got me thinking. regardless of whatsoever is the issue ur having.u need to be with ur family on eid. i don't want to miss the morning moments of eid with my father.so i have decided to take the high road and i do want to go back for eid.

but there's a problem..

my final paper is on the 19th and eid is on the 20th.and not only that my paper finishes at 4pm.so there's noway am gonna be there for the last day of breaking fast.and am sure the highway will be flooded with cars and i so hate being stuck on it.therefore i will be going back to johor around 3-4 in the morning with my stupid infected eyes. or maybe i should go a bit earlier as my eyes gets really blurry sometimes.

or

maybe just not go back at all. i didn't want to go back anyways. my wish was granted. only that it's not my wish anymore. i really wanna go back. i miss my father. *sigh*

stupid red eyes

i hate my eyes right now. i got some stupid eye infection. thank-you so so so much mr.mickey. i got it from you! it's so freaking itchy and watery! and so annoying!! :(

prince of the knight

when i was a little girl a little bird told me that there are two types of man the prince charming and the knight in shining armor.when i was young i dreamt that my prince charming will find me in a beautiful garden that is colourful with all different type of flowers. as i grew older i dreamt being saved by the knight in shining armor after being locked up in a dungeon.

what type would be your choice? the prince charming or the knight in shining armor. as for me i do want to be charmed by my prince charming where i am the utter centre of attention. but i still want to be rescued by my knight in shining armor where he will save me from all my troubles. so which am i to choose ? the prince charming or the knight in shining armor?

who says i can't have both right? well i think my choice would be prince of the knight. he has a lil bit of both. why must we make a decision to choose between the two when we can have a lil bit of both. i know he's out there.i think i found him.my prince of the knight.

off pushing daisies

meet the characters of a tv show called pushing daisies that stole my heart. meet the private investigator mr.emerson cod, the pie maker ned, the girl who live from the dead chuck, her aunts aunt vivian and aunt lily and the blondie of the show ms.olive (from left.)

this show is such a delight compared to other shows. it is a glorious fairy tale with saturated colours and such a fine story line. with a touch of magic they wake up the dead to solve murder casses. and ofcourse the love off the pie maker and the girl who's dead. and the blondie who loves the pie maker who's heart is not for her.

oh! am in love with this show. thanx haiqal for introducing me to this show. but am heart broken as this show is cancelled. am tired of the same show over and over again.most shows now are basically the same concept with different dramas. it's not that i hate em just tired of it and pop comes this whimsical story and they cancelling it of.ugh!!

09.09.09

...and then there were two...at the end of the day it would always be me and you...i had fun with ur stupid jokes on the way up there...the silence up there was such a waste...i guess both of us were busy with our own emotions...the talk on the way back was nice...i love you lil girl...

runaway

i want to runaway
runaway
to be alone
i hate this time around of the year
someone take me away
take me away
so that i won't have to go through it all
obstacles, pressure and the unknown

oh si kelabu

saya amat mengasihani awak.dengan mata kasar ye memang awak menang.tapi pada hakikatnya saya tahu.awak tahu.dia tahu.bahawa awak tidak dapat menawani hati dia.makanya.sebenar-benarnya saya telah menang.saya sangat kasihani awak.but then again love is not a game nor is relationship.thus, i guess what's meant to be is meant to be. and am happy with my life now. the one with the insecurities is you.so you can tell the whole world that u have won.but you know what's the turth of the invisibility. :)

hating to drive

i officially hate driving.do you know how much fun it is just to sit there on the passenger sit and let someone else do the work.i've been driving for such a long time that i forgot till yesterday.i felt so relaxed.somemore am not that well now.it's nice having someone else driving.i seriously hate driving.anyone care to drive me anywhere i wanna go? *ahakz* thanx z and azri for driving.