graduation !

nope it’s not mine of course! gotta a long time to go. I went to my friends graduation in Johore. it was a while back actually but I have this feeling of wanting to graduate ASAP. and it actually shows how far we have gone. they were my friends since high school btw. ms.N and my missy just wanna let u know tho’ it was a tiring experience I had one of the greatest experience in my life. and am so grateful that I was there.

my dearest ms. N

my missy

my missy and I

check out out eye bags people !! (hahahah)

the pressie I gave my missy. she strictly said no flowers ! so I gave her grass. heheh.

the bestie on her graduation day!

cik. anne on her graduation day!

congrats to both of you too. tho’ I couldn’t make it but am truly happy and proud of you guys. congratulations!! xx

LASTLY

moi on my graduation day !! NOT !!

hahah… but I wanna graduate ASAP. I wanna wear the hat with that dangling thingy. am so happy that u are all supportive of me despite I’m being me. <3 <3

a little girl

 

that’s how I feel right now. my daddy dearest just got me a new toy and am happy. it’s been a while since he gave me a pressie. thank-you papa! I promise you I will study hard. * blessed*

of my long hair….

right now i regret so much that i chopped of my hair. i miss my long hair. i miss it badly. my hair takes quite a while to grow.it has been almost 4 month and it has only grown like 2 inches.and am hating it right now as its not to long nor to shot. it’s annoying. am sure you girls out there understand. i want my long hair back. huarghhh.

 

nampak sweet and decent je..huahahah..perasan much?

(u know am kidding right?)

hot air balloon

it was ages ago actually. but somehow i feel like writing about it. :) i actually forgot when it was but i knew i was very excited. i asked z to accompany me and thank-god she wanted to coz i really wanted to go. it was the first time where Malaysia is the host for a hot air balloon festival.

when we reached putrajaya. i kept on searching for the HAB but nope. there was no sign of it at all. i was devastated ! so we went round round looking for the place of this particular event. yeay ! we then found it then again there was no sign of HAB. i decided to park anyways thinking it may not be up yet.

then we look for the place and went round and round. asking people where is it? and each of them gave different answers. eesshhhh !!

we were lost in the hot sun not knowing where to go! urghh!!

phewww!! we finally found the event map. thank-god!!

the place was not that far from where we were actually. so before we went there we went to  get some snacks. look at the amount of people that were there.

Malaysian and food. inseparable!

we then found a spot and start munching away while waiting for the HAB.

an hour and 2 hours later still no sign of HAB, so we do what we do best

 

 

cam whoring!!

then finally…

 

but hey that ain’t no HAB.

sheesh…so we decided to change spot to somewhere shady

and read our books. :)

and z slept of.

finally. they were up. yeay ! but i was still disappointed. i imagined it would be something like the event in the last part of the ugly truth but it was nothing like that nothing at all..:(

to cure the frustrated heart. we cam whored! tho’ it was disappointing i had a great day.

day by day

goes by and emptiness strikes in every minute that i breathe

looking back at all the things that could’ve happen

it’s too late now

looking forward is what i have to put in mind

but it’s not easy as i'm being me
i'll have the strength for a while

than am back to square one

i guess i know where my fault is
i forgot Him

the one that we all should never forget

He is the one that am gonna turn to from now on.

*insyallah*

hey you

you can stop what you’re doing. you say you hate fake people but why don’t you look at the mirror. i think ur fake. and seriously i can see ur green monster miles away. no need to be nice to me and act like you care coz i know you don’t!! and please please just stop asking people what am i doing now. how am i now. (i know you want to know coz ur such a kppoooccchhiii!!) and u love it when i crumble down. there’s no need to be nosy!! u never cared before so there’s no need to do it now.

oh another thing. i suggest you drop ur attitude of judging people. it’s not like you’re a saint!!

bitchy mode.

some people

just don’t know the limit of jokes. i might be smiling and playing along but who knows what’s in my heart. maybe you guys should think before acting. some things are just too much. and it’s not funny. fikir lah dulu sebelum menjatuhkan air muka orang. alhamdulillah im not angry am just hurt and it changes my perspective of you.

religious is not me

but i find this add very impressive

24 hours

a day is just not enough. i miss blogging. i miss bumming around. i know you’ve heard this a zillion times but i do. there are so many things in my head that i can’t focus on one thing. it’s all messy up there. and unfortunately it’s not just my head it’s my emotions too. it’s all mixed up.

i feel like dropping everything. and just start a new life. there’s the family drama, work, friends and kids and family drama and family drama. there’s a lot to take in and i don’t think i can cope.

*sigh*

hola

wow, i haven’t updated for sometime. well there’s nothing new. been busy with work. did i just say work. am still not use to it. so right now am busy with some advertising thingy and wedding planning thing. my client is 38 and she’s giving me task from A to Z. am making the door gift from scratch. hating it right now.

anyways i was at the studio and they were watching the L word. i was never interested watching the series. it is actually quite interesting and and and there’s this super cute cute girl that am just so in love with. the name is SHANE. i love her personality and her style and oh just everything bout her. here is my beautiful SHANE.

 

 

isn’t she just so beautiful

 

and here oh she looks so damn cool

it happens,

 

changes. i was a student 2 month back or more like a bummer. staying on my own. being rebellious to get attention from the father. now. am staying with a family. not mine of course. it’s weird most of the time. come on i’ve stayed on my own for almost 6 years. and suddenly am in a world full of people 24-7. WEIRD.

am also working now. which is really really weird. but i love it. do i ? i don’t know anymore. am just numb. i don’t feel anything anymore. the girl who believes in love and full of emotions has died. or maybe she’s lost. right now she’s just living because she’s still alive.

OMG!!!

i fell!! i fell!! i fell in public. in a restaurant. in slow motion!! everyone was looking at me. the worst part is i could see all their faces too. as it was in a very slow motion. babun!! oh the embarrassment. it has been for some time that i did not experience falling in front of a bunch of people. years maybe.

the thing is my little miss.m just asked me yesterday “ kak zie pernah jatuh in public tak”? ( have u ever fallen in public before) i said “ yeah. but it was years ago". and i don’t think am gonna fall anymore” arghhh!! what are the odds huh??

on a calm evening one day

the bride stared out the window in her beautiful wedding dress with her sad eyes thinking i would have to let him go. she belongs to  someone else now. her love for him is for eternity. but she knows that they were not meant to be. he. he belongs to her. she knew from the beginning her lovely bestfriend has kept feelings for him. so then. the bride married the guy whom has love her since forever. the bride prayed that he: her eternal love will soon realise that she: her lovely bestfriend is in love with him.

hApPy 21st Ms.Z

 

 

happy 21st darling. tho’ it was nothing much. hope you enjoyed it.

 

the surprise done by mr.H, Ms.D, Mr.A, and a few other people i guess

 

 

birthday girl and i.

oh dear. we didn’t take any group picture. alaaa…:( neways dear ms.z hope all your wishes will come true and i pray the best for you. lurve.

working

is so damn tiring. and am not even working full-time yet. but i love my job. i get to meet a whole bunch of new people. never thought that i’d be working in this line but i guess sometimes fate just bring you to your path. but one thing i hate most about my my job is that i have to put those stuff you call cosmetics. and tons of them.

and working is a good distraction as well. it distracts me from the never ending family drama. as well as my broken heart. over a stupid crush.  i guess i should learn on where do i stand. and when people say the heart is what matters. it’s just a big fat lie.

that’s all for now. toodles. :)

2009

i know it’s late to talk of 2009 but i still want too. :) it was a great start in the beginning but towards the end it was just so darn harsh to me. the end of 2009 hit me deep and it changed my life. it changes everything.

at first. i thought it was really bad and it took me into a really dark place. only god knows what’s in my head at that time.

but hey. i got up thinking. it’s not so bad after all. since it was going to be a new year ( this was in dec) might as well start off all new. so. i guess am okay.

baby steps. still trying to adapt with the new environment and the whole new lifestyle.

most importantly my new place still has lots of greeneries.