Thursday, December 3, 2009

shrink

is it so bad seeing one. i really can’t take it anymore. i wish there was one in malaysia where i can actually just admit myself. (a nice one of course but i don’t think there is one) i think am going to have a breakdown. i just know its coming. and am scared. am scared of myself.

do i sound crazy to you?

maybe i just am. *sigh*

hey seeing a shrink doesn’t mean am crazy ok? maybe i just need some help. one thing that disappoints me is most Malaysians are not accepting the idea of seeing a shrink. as soon as you say you are seeing one. they’ll say “ die tue gila jumpa pakar sakit jiwa” “die tue ada mental problem” and it goes on and on and on.

i really need one. i do. i know i do. to my dearest friends please do not judge me.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

day by day

things get worst

i try to fix it

but nothing happens

am tired

tired of it all

especially the acts that we are happy

the distance is hurting me

it gets worst

on every gathering

my heart has broken into pieces

nothing can fix it anymore