runaway

i want to runaway
runaway
to be alone
i hate this time around of the year
someone take me away
take me away
so that i won't have to go through it all
obstacles, pressure and the unknown

oh si kelabu

saya amat mengasihani awak.dengan mata kasar ye memang awak menang.tapi pada hakikatnya saya tahu.awak tahu.dia tahu.bahawa awak tidak dapat menawani hati dia.makanya.sebenar-benarnya saya telah menang.saya sangat kasihani awak.but then again love is not a game nor is relationship.thus, i guess what's meant to be is meant to be. and am happy with my life now. the one with the insecurities is you.so you can tell the whole world that u have won.but you know what's the turth of the invisibility. :)

hating to drive

i officially hate driving.do you know how much fun it is just to sit there on the passenger sit and let someone else do the work.i've been driving for such a long time that i forgot till yesterday.i felt so relaxed.somemore am not that well now.it's nice having someone else driving.i seriously hate driving.anyone care to drive me anywhere i wanna go? *ahakz* thanx z and azri for driving.

"little prince"~brooke shields

eyes are blind

you have to look with the heart

what's most important is

the invisible

michael jackson

flu.flu.flu

i am not that well and i really hate it.i was so excited to go for class yesterday.and bam! on monday night i started having a flu.it all begin with a very sore throat that evening.after sending z to work i went to the clinic as i can't hardly open my eyes edy.i had to wait for the dr like an hour plus.god knows how much i was swearing.my body was aching like madness.hany a.puzi.i straight a way jumped up and went into the room. the dr check my temp. and it was 38.7.no wonder i felt so crappy and restless most of the time. then he also said that my tonsil are red.and my throat has swollen.

i haven't felt this sick for such a long time.owh how i wish my mother was still here.am sure she'll make it better in a jiffy.or maybe miss.m.i love it when she take cares of me when am sick.as of yesterday no one really took care of me.i hate the fact that i have to take care of myself.i miss being taken care off. well things changes i guess and am still learning.dear god! i really hate changes.i love my comfort zone. but changes is one fact of life that we can never run from. am sure you've heard before change is the only constant.

first kiss

i miss him.i miss him a lot.i miss my ex.we were together for four years oso.i don't know why but am missing him.we were always so happy.happy of doing nothing.on weekdays we would go to the library after school.and as for weekends our choice would always be the beach.oh!how i miss the beach there.it is just so beautiful.

my first kiss was perfect.at the beach.sitting on the soft sand.with the winds.sitting between his lap.both of us facing the sea.he suddenly whisper to me.i love you.love you as big as the sea.it will never end.i turn my face towards his and there our lips met.there's no other words that can describe that moment other than PERFECT.

i really loved him.he was always so sweet.i still remember when i was sick and he brought me porridge and hot milo that he made himself for the whole week.i always love all the small things that he did for me.i love all the presents too.i just love all the small,patty things more.you know what they say it's not hard to make a girl happy.

now am scared.scared that i wont feel the way i felt when i was with him ever.loving and being loved is such a great feeling that a person can ever have.

tic---toc---tic---toc

time passes by so slow for me nowadays.everything is slow.i don't really know where my head is.i don't even know what am feeling.i really don't.the weird feeling that scares me is still there.i don't know why.i don't know what it is. (this has nothing gotta to do with guys) i feel like blurting it out but i just can't.coz i don't even know what it is.i really wish that this feeling would go away.so that i can have a peace of mind.

i feel sad tonight.news of death and me is a big NO.it brings me to this dark little place where am alone.and i don't handle it very well.actually not at all.news of death is a norm nowadays.i've been hearing it all around and honestly it scares me.i just hope that when i die i wont die in a freaky way where my body is not attached or my face is distorted.dying in my sleep would be good.and i do wanna look good when i die.:)

the wacko jacko

The legend with his famous glitter glove pose

The legend's popular move

he's gone.he left us all.despite all the rumours and gossips and news bout the king of pop i still love him.i love his music.his music was part of my childhood and will always be in my heart.my favourites would be you are not alone.smooth criminal and ofcourse black or white.my deepest condolonces to his family as well as his fans.he's our wacko jacko.the legend.no one can replace him.may u rest in peace mr.wacko jacko.*heart him*

edie britt

"i died just like i lived as the complete and utter centre of attention"

oh i just so love her.her character.the famous slutty edie britt on wisteria lane.i can't imagine desperate housewives without her.it's not gonna be fun anymore.who's gonna have patty fights with susan?she's a slut!i love that about heart.but i know she has a good heart inside of her.she make people realize how strong they really are through her own harsh ways.no sweet talk.her shoulder is not to cry on.you'll just get a slap right in ur face.i so love her style.she died with style.and i love her last words.

*ahakz*

i love my new template.do u like it?but damn all my widgets are deleted.will update soon.going out now.hope u'll enjoy reading my blog more with the new look.:p

again and again

the same mistake over and over again.how can i be that stupid?i guess i never learned.i am so angry at myself right now for doing the same mistake over and over again.everyone around me had warned me but i never listen.it's the same story again and again with different actors but the same story line.am not gonna blame anyone except for myself.and trust me it is not fate.it was my choice.urghhh!!! i so wanna scream right now!!!!

lately

i have this feeling.a feeling that i've never felt before.it's inndescribable.it scares me.