flu.flu.flu

i am not that well and i really hate it.i was so excited to go for class yesterday.and bam! on monday night i started having a flu.it all begin with a very sore throat that evening.after sending z to work i went to the clinic as i can't hardly open my eyes edy.i had to wait for the dr like an hour plus.god knows how much i was swearing.my body was aching like madness.hany a.puzi.i straight a way jumped up and went into the room. the dr check my temp. and it was 38.7.no wonder i felt so crappy and restless most of the time. then he also said that my tonsil are red.and my throat has swollen.

i haven't felt this sick for such a long time.owh how i wish my mother was still here.am sure she'll make it better in a jiffy.or maybe miss.m.i love it when she take cares of me when am sick.as of yesterday no one really took care of me.i hate the fact that i have to take care of myself.i miss being taken care off. well things changes i guess and am still learning.dear god! i really hate changes.i love my comfort zone. but changes is one fact of life that we can never run from. am sure you've heard before change is the only constant.

first kiss

i miss him.i miss him a lot.i miss my ex.we were together for four years oso.i don't know why but am missing him.we were always so happy.happy of doing nothing.on weekdays we would go to the library after school.and as for weekends our choice would always be the beach.oh!how i miss the beach there.it is just so beautiful.

my first kiss was perfect.at the beach.sitting on the soft sand.with the winds.sitting between his lap.both of us facing the sea.he suddenly whisper to me.i love you.love you as big as the sea.it will never end.i turn my face towards his and there our lips met.there's no other words that can describe that moment other than PERFECT.

i really loved him.he was always so sweet.i still remember when i was sick and he brought me porridge and hot milo that he made himself for the whole week.i always love all the small things that he did for me.i love all the presents too.i just love all the small,patty things more.you know what they say it's not hard to make a girl happy.

now am scared.scared that i wont feel the way i felt when i was with him ever.loving and being loved is such a great feeling that a person can ever have.

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time passes by so slow for me nowadays.everything is slow.i don't really know where my head is.i don't even know what am feeling.i really don't.the weird feeling that scares me is still there.i don't know why.i don't know what it is. (this has nothing gotta to do with guys) i feel like blurting it out but i just can't.coz i don't even know what it is.i really wish that this feeling would go away.so that i can have a peace of mind.

i feel sad tonight.news of death and me is a big NO.it brings me to this dark little place where am alone.and i don't handle it very well.actually not at all.news of death is a norm nowadays.i've been hearing it all around and honestly it scares me.i just hope that when i die i wont die in a freaky way where my body is not attached or my face is distorted.dying in my sleep would be good.and i do wanna look good when i die.:)

the wacko jacko

The legend with his famous glitter glove pose

The legend's popular move

he's gone.he left us all.despite all the rumours and gossips and news bout the king of pop i still love him.i love his music.his music was part of my childhood and will always be in my heart.my favourites would be you are not alone.smooth criminal and ofcourse black or white.my deepest condolonces to his family as well as his fans.he's our wacko jacko.the legend.no one can replace him.may u rest in peace mr.wacko jacko.*heart him*

edie britt

"i died just like i lived as the complete and utter centre of attention"

oh i just so love her.her character.the famous slutty edie britt on wisteria lane.i can't imagine desperate housewives without her.it's not gonna be fun anymore.who's gonna have patty fights with susan?she's a slut!i love that about heart.but i know she has a good heart inside of her.she make people realize how strong they really are through her own harsh ways.no sweet talk.her shoulder is not to cry on.you'll just get a slap right in ur face.i so love her style.she died with style.and i love her last words.

*ahakz*

i love my new template.do u like it?but damn all my widgets are deleted.will update soon.going out now.hope u'll enjoy reading my blog more with the new look.:p

again and again

the same mistake over and over again.how can i be that stupid?i guess i never learned.i am so angry at myself right now for doing the same mistake over and over again.everyone around me had warned me but i never listen.it's the same story again and again with different actors but the same story line.am not gonna blame anyone except for myself.and trust me it is not fate.it was my choice.urghhh!!! i so wanna scream right now!!!!

lately

i have this feeling.a feeling that i've never felt before.it's inndescribable.it scares me.

specially for ms.M n mr.H

thanx ms.melissa and mr hed for bringing us (me n z) out today.actually forced to bring ME out by ME.(heheh) i know we didn't do anything much but i just feel so happy.i felt like a family.somehow the emptiness in me is filled today.im so happy that i feel like crying.i really love u guys so much.thanx ms.melissa for always being there for me.and hed treat her nicely please.she's one in a million.love you both.and seeing both of you makes me believe that true love still exist. :) love you guys.xoxo.

deeper conversation

am so confuse right now.i think am falling for someone.but the thing is he is way older than me.and am not sure if am ready for commitment.i haven't been in a relationship for so long that am not so sure anymore.am scared that i can't commit.there are a lot of things that i have to think about.it's not just about the age gap and commitment.i really don't know what to do.maybe we could just be friends.for the moment.let's get to know each other deeper.maybe we should talk about it too.

and if u dont mind.can u tell me all ur hopes and fears.and everything that you believe in.would you make a difference in the world.i'd love for you to take me in a deeper conversation-deeper conversation by yuna.

i really dont want to be with someone i dont have a future with and i truly love.relationship is not just bout having fun and being together all the time.it takes a lot more than that.and i think i should really think bout it.

what a night

for the past week i have been missing my dearest daddy and mr.bushouk.guess what?tonight i saw both of them.my dad called me around 8 for dinner.after with my daddy my bushouk came and pick me and z up.we went to 7e to get some stuff.then my bushouk had to go home coz he need to do some stuff.sedihnyer saya.*sigh*.i haven't seen him for some time.spend time with me idiot!!

then as me n z entered the gate and she unlocks the grill.jeng..jeng..jeng..the door was locked and z doesn't have the keys and mine's in the house.great!! as u around me know i am very bimboish and sengal according to mr.bushouk.as usual he came to the rescue.unfortunately this time he couldn't help.oh,no!where are we gonna sleep?will we be stranded outside?thank-god my neighbour who i glance and smile once in a while to helped out.

while my neighbours were busy trying to open the door knob.me n mr.bushouk were busy teasing, arguing and hitting each other.i gotta pull his hair.hahah.*momento*:p then suddenly we realised that it was just not the two of us in the world.heheh.mr.bushouk continued helping the guys out.and me?stood there asking tons of questions as a bimbo does.hahah.

am happy tonight.happy that i got to see both people that i miss and truly love.

obsess too!

yes.yes.ms.melissa am obsess with the video too.

to readers out there who are into weddings

u must check this video out

khalil and azua's wedding montage

they are just so beautiful and fun!

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