you can stop what you’re doing. you say you hate fake people but why don’t you look at the mirror. i think ur fake. and seriously i can see ur green monster miles away. no need to be nice to me and act like you care coz i know you don’t!! and please please just stop asking people what am i doing now. how am i now. (i know you want to know coz ur such a kppoooccchhiii!!) and u love it when i crumble down. there’s no need to be nosy!! u never cared before so there’s no need to do it now.
oh another thing. i suggest you drop ur attitude of judging people. it’s not like you’re a saint!!
bitchy mode.
just don’t know the limit of jokes. i might be smiling and playing along but who knows what’s in my heart. maybe you guys should think before acting. some things are just too much. and it’s not funny. fikir lah dulu sebelum menjatuhkan air muka orang. alhamdulillah im not angry am just hurt and it changes my perspective of you.
a day is just not enough. i miss blogging. i miss bumming around. i know you’ve heard this a zillion times but i do. there are so many things in my head that i can’t focus on one thing. it’s all messy up there. and unfortunately it’s not just my head it’s my emotions too. it’s all mixed up.
i feel like dropping everything. and just start a new life. there’s the family drama, work, friends and kids and family drama and family drama. there’s a lot to take in and i don’t think i can cope.
*sigh*
wow, i haven’t updated for sometime. well there’s nothing new. been busy with work. did i just say work. am still not use to it. so right now am busy with some advertising thingy and wedding planning thing. my client is 38 and she’s giving me task from A to Z. am making the door gift from scratch. hating it right now.
anyways i was at the studio and they were watching the L word. i was never interested watching the series. it is actually quite interesting and and and there’s this super cute cute girl that am just so in love with. the name is SHANE. i love her personality and her style and oh just everything bout her. here is my beautiful SHANE.
isn’t she just so beautiful
and here oh she looks so damn cool
changes. i was a student 2 month back or more like a bummer. staying on my own. being rebellious to get attention from the father. now. am staying with a family. not mine of course. it’s weird most of the time. come on i’ve stayed on my own for almost 6 years. and suddenly am in a world full of people 24-7. WEIRD.
am also working now. which is really really weird. but i love it. do i ? i don’t know anymore. am just numb. i don’t feel anything anymore. the girl who believes in love and full of emotions has died. or maybe she’s lost. right now she’s just living because she’s still alive.
i fell!! i fell!! i fell in public. in a restaurant. in slow motion!! everyone was looking at me. the worst part is i could see all their faces too. as it was in a very slow motion. babun!! oh the embarrassment. it has been for some time that i did not experience falling in front of a bunch of people. years maybe.
the thing is my little miss.m just asked me yesterday “ kak zie pernah jatuh in public tak”? ( have u ever fallen in public before) i said “ yeah. but it was years ago". and i don’t think am gonna fall anymore” arghhh!! what are the odds huh??
happy 21st darling. tho’ it was nothing much. hope you enjoyed it.
the surprise done by mr.H, Ms.D, Mr.A, and a few other people i guess
birthday girl and i.
oh dear. we didn’t take any group picture. alaaa…:( neways dear ms.z hope all your wishes will come true and i pray the best for you. lurve.
is so damn tiring. and am not even working full-time yet. but i love my job. i get to meet a whole bunch of new people. never thought that i’d be working in this line but i guess sometimes fate just bring you to your path. but one thing i hate most about my my job is that i have to put those stuff you call cosmetics. and tons of them.
and working is a good distraction as well. it distracts me from the never ending family drama. as well as my broken heart. over a stupid crush. i guess i should learn on where do i stand. and when people say the heart is what matters. it’s just a big fat lie.
that’s all for now. toodles. :)
i know it’s late to talk of 2009 but i still want too. :) it was a great start in the beginning but towards the end it was just so darn harsh to me. the end of 2009 hit me deep and it changed my life. it changes everything.
at first. i thought it was really bad and it took me into a really dark place. only god knows what’s in my head at that time.
but hey. i got up thinking. it’s not so bad after all. since it was going to be a new year ( this was in dec) might as well start off all new. so. i guess am okay.
baby steps. still trying to adapt with the new environment and the whole new lifestyle.
most importantly my new place still has lots of greeneries.
